October 2023
Words will fail me… I knew that the minute I started typing and the tears blinded me from seeing my computer screen.
Just like we’ve all been unwillingly trying to blind ourselves from the barbaric atrocities happening in Palestine for decades, in hopes of numbing our pain and masking our helplessness…
Words will fail me.. In my attempt to describe how you and I feel right now.
This sharp, constant ache gripping your heart..
The lump in your throat threatening to let out a roaring, ear piering cry..
The tightness in your chest obstructing you from breathing normally
The tears stinging your eyes with sorrow and maybe even guilt and shame
The anger..
The indignation..
The horror and terror..
It’s like every bombing strike on Gaza, crashes into our hearts with streams of disgrace. It’s taking its toll on us, in our safe homes and warm beds… Some of us literally feel our bodies collapsing..
I’m sorry, I don’t mean to make this worse for you. I’m just helpless.. Dying inside slowly everyday… like millions of people around the world.
Words will fail me… because I admit I never fully understood politics
I don’t understand the logic behind murdering thousands of innocent souls just because a ‘terrorist’ might be hiding in the same vicinity.
It’s like bombing a whole school because an ‘enemy’ might be hiding inside one of the classrooms.
It’s not ‘like’ that. It’s EXACTLY that! Schools and hospitals and mosques and churches are being demolished in the name of ‘self defense’
Thousands of children are killed in the blink of an eye, or lie awake trembling with fear. You won’t even let your own child watch a horror movie before bedtime, or watch him or her cry in pain from a small wound.
Imagine living for weeks, actually no, for one day, with no food, no water, and no electricity, with only the sounds of bombs, the buzzing of flies swarming around dead bodies, coughing while your insides burn from inhaling the toxic fumes of white phosphorus munitions firing at you. Watching your friends and family fall one after the other..
Newly weds..
Grandmas and newborns..
Your best friends from school..
Your own children you once tucked in bed being tucked in graves..
Journalists killed while trying to convey one horrendous moment of lifelong oppression..
Pregnant women giving birth on the side of the road, little children crying on top of their parents’ corpses and rescuers carrying the severley wounded to hospitals only to end up dead by another merciless, Israeli strike.
I’m still not allowing myself to draw you a vivid image of what’s really happening in Gaza right now, simply because I myself can’t wrap my mind around it. I’m scared if I let myself feel it fully, I’ll go completely insane.
So words fail me.. Just like the world has failed Palestine..
And yet new words come to life…. With new meanings and new lights of hope…
“And never think of those who have been killed in the cause of Allah as dead. Rather, they are alive with their Lord, receiving provision” (Holy Qur’an 3:169)
We now finally understand all the verses in the Qur’an speaking about hellfire and eternal torture. Perhaps a couple of weeks ago, some of us might have thought them to be too harsh, but now we completely understand. Our Lord, the most Merciful and the most Compassionate, is also the “Utterly Just’, ‘The Avenger’ and the “All and Ever Witnessing”
This massacre. This genocide. This inhumane, one-sided war, will not go unrequitted. Not in this life, nor the Hereafter….
As small of a consolation it might be, but look around you… the world is finally waking up. The so-called state of Israel has already lost the media war. Millions of righteous souls are protesting against this oppression. Millions are posting and tweeting on social media that they’re finally learning the truth after studying and researching and finally educating themselves on what is really going on, which is the complete opposite of what their newschannels are spoon-feeding them. Bribes and threats to support Israel have been exposed, luring even more influencers and public figures to stand up for humanity. I’ve seen non-muslims describe how these recent events have guided them to learn about Islam. The young generation, whom we thought were unbothered, are the first in line to speak up on every possible platform. Fearless and proud!
I listen to friends talk about their newfound gratefulness for the simple blessings in life, like showers and hot meals.
We’ve been given a new perspective that we can’t ‘unsee’ anytime soon.
This pain we’re going through is what is helping us grow….
Our voices can’t be muffled anymore.
So please… I urge you…
Speak up, even when words fail you
Keep praying, even when your faith is shaken
Keep posting and sharing, even when the algorithm beats you
Keep donating, even if you don’t have much to offer..
Keep boycotting companies that support Zionists, even if you feel it won’t have a huge effect
Keep the stories of the innocent dead alive
And keep strong… even when you feel helpless…
To the Holy Land of Palestine…
We will not be silent anymore
We stand with you and stand by you
Our broken hearts will not stop praying
Until the sounds of bombs and cries of agony
Are replaced with the echoes of your children’s laughter and tears of joy…
All our love…
From all Humans around the World
Notes From The Heart 